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09-14-08 How Does your Heart Feel?

Written by Arianha

If we become quiet and still within we can feel the winds of change blowing through our hearts cleansing out all the old feelings, the sad feelings, the disconnected feelings and we can become resilient and strong in the new feelings of wholeness, peace and contentment. No longer satisfied by Hallmark valentines, chocolates and tiny treasures our hearts are seeking real feelings, real people and real connections.
The love behind the card or gift is felt deeply. The shallowness behind the card or gift is also felt deeply.
Our hearts are seeing much more of the authenticity of the giver's energy.
Valentine's week was an opportunity for us to feel where we felt lonely, sad or disconnected. It helped us to bring up any unresolved feelings of loss, separation and distance from those that we love. It gave us the opportunity to look at how we chose in each moment to honor our true feelings and stay in the flow.
I personally had challenges with feeling capable of handling all of the various tasks I had to face with the emotions that were being brought to the surface. Computer skills I felt were lacking, challenging clients, time constraints, many people wanting me and wanting to be alone to be quiet. Then flip-flopping between wanting to be with friends and loved ones and desiring quiet time with my soul.
I wanted so much to listen to the gentle energy of my soul in the quiet serene place of understanding while the world kept getting louder and louder. Until I finally came to peace with it all.
I wanted to feel nature, the beings from Telos, the stillness of God and know that all the confusing, conflicting thoughts and emotions would come to rest, come into harmony, come to oneness in a world spinning out of control.
I questioned who am I really and realized that it's OK for me to grow and change. To learn the skills I feel I need to learn and allow myself the time I need to accomplish whatever I set out to do. It also became OK to spend time with friends and acknowledge the part of me that still was healing. It was also OK to own all the chaos and confusion I was feeling and know that it would pass. It was OK for things to be in disorder and to know that progress was stil occuring. It was OK for my heart to feel all that it was feeling and continue to stay open. I didn't have to 'shut down' because of the the emotional overload. I could wake up each day, continue being grateful, continue sharing and continue healing.
That's when the light went on. My ephipany came. I didn't have to be pushed or pulled by the desires of others or my own desires. I could just be. I could cry when I needed to, laugh when I wanted to, share when I felt moved to and close my door and be by myself when it was time.
What an opportunity this became. No longer needing to be anything other than myself in each moment. No longer needing to fit in or be appropriate. What freedom. I could feel my heart lightening up and freeing itself, creating it's own space.
I chose to create a new script for myself. The rejection and disappointment I had experienced since birth on this planet was no longer what I wanted to experience. Since this was my movie, I decided to write a new script where I was loved and held at birth, wanted and accepted. I chose happiness, health, nuturing parents and family. I chose to have the support I needed to develop my skills in music and writing. I chose a loving partner who honors me on the physical plane and shares with me the vision, the dream, and the mission with all the steps and stages of growth to get there. I chose abundance, lots and lots of abundance to share and to spare. I chose to honor my heart, my feelings, my intuition, my soul's guidance. I chose the sword of truth and discernment. Now I can live happily forever in my own co-creation...so can you!! Happy beginnings, happy middles and happy endings. Enjoy the journey!

The Co-Creative Council of Light thanks each of you for your loving participation in the experience you call life. We are, all of us now writing the book-
Welcome to Planet Earth, Book 2.

Nemaste